2010
07.06

Perjury does not get prosecuted in Montgomery County Pennsylvania. I have been told that there would be far too many cases if the District Attorney got involved. SO PERJURY IS IGNORED AT EVERY PROCEEDING.

Fraud is completely ignored when the court refuses to listen to the truth. False documents were created to back up their position. When Judge Del Ricci was informed that the documents had not been delivered and were fraudulent, he ordered the court staff to make copies for me. He then announced into the court record that I KNOW HAD RECEIVED THE DOCUMENTS. APPARENTLY, HE FORGOT THEY ARE STILL FRAUDULENT DOCUMENTS.

False Allegations have been made to so many law enforcement agencies and departments, it is small wonder they are too exhausted from looking into the false allegations against me to find time to investigate my accusers. And I’m sure there are even more false allegations I haven’t heard. These investigations eventually find their way into ex parte communications with the court and AFFECT EVERY PROCEEDING. But, the court should not engage in ex parte communications. Judge Del Ricci certainly did when he ‘off the record’ indicated he spoke to police about making sure that Sonya was protected from charges in the burglary, break-in, vandalism and poisoning of my dog. Robert Angst said he additionally talked to county detectives about the matter. (Caution: A conspiracy, when identified as a conspiracy, is a self defeating argument. Not all conspiracies are ‘conspiracy theories’. There are real ones.)

The terrorism and harassment I have experienced is not imaginary. It has just been ignored. Computers hacked, telephones hacked, various other harassment techniques deployed, identity theft. I always waited until I proved the existence of anything before contacting the authorities who then promptly ignored me.

NOTE: When the people terrorizing you have full access to your computers and phones, they will likely know everything you are planning to do. They run interference before you report anything to law enforcement. As law enforcement is investigating YOU as a result of their false allegation, you are now seemingly reporting circumstances attributed to the law enforcement agency to whom you are reporting the crime.

When Court Orders are violated with complete impunity, you have no alternatives but to appeal. A very time consuming task when it involves EVERYTHING. And before you get the chance to appeal the courts ridiculously bad decision, they are on to the next issue or attack which must get your attention. Even though you know they will not be held accountable for their acts, you have no choice but to file.

This is my life. Every hour of every day, I deal with the stress and strain of the circumstances of the terroristic divorce. Their is no escape. There is no end in sight. It is overwhelming beyond belief. I persevere and I cry. NO ONE HELPS.

2010
07.04

Today is the 4th of July. The overwhelming situation just destroys me more when each holiday passes.

This last week has delivered more information indicating ‘friends’ met since the divorce began were clearly misrepresenting themselves.

Instead of friends, I prefer to refer to them as Confidential Informants. It took a while to find the right name to call them. After seeing season 2 of DEXTER, it was the only logical title. And I was struggling with finding the right word.

Ron, Chris, Jay, Colin, Andy, Wally, Doug, … Each stars at the center of the multiple teams. I make no excuse for extending friendship to them. I’m isolated and alone. Every friend from years ago is gone. So maybe I lowered my standards to include people whom I may not have ordinarily associated. The friendship I offered and gave was genuine and sincere. Though at many times their lack of those same qualities caused them stress. I don’t believe that any of them – after getting to know me – liked what they were doing to me. As a matter of fact, I am certain of it.

Those not named, don’t feel slighted. The guys above were who I considered the leads. You were still part of the teams.

The people they brought around were an extension of the program. At times, the group numbered over 30 people. They are all gone. Many were at an event which I refer to as The Confidential Informant Company Picnic – a story for another day.

They were all unsuccessful in changing me. I always stayed true to myself. I always treated everyone as I would any friend. It surprised them. It confused them. It made them realize they were on the wrong side.

There were times when I got the feeling they attempted to fight back against the ‘powers-that-be’ on my behalf. Unsuccessful in that endeavor, they became distant and very disappointed in themselves. A feeling I could see in them which they couldn’t explain themselves. Because any revelation of the real truth would be met with ???

Suffice to say, in the FBI confidential informant program, ANY revelation of the persons status will result in immediate enforcement of the sentence which they escaped by becoming confidential informants.

My apologies to those who may have been removed from the program after phone conversations where I made up the stories of how you broke down, told me the truth, or other events. You disappeared the fastest. Instantly, or almost instantly. At times I would feel guilty about ‘testing’ what was going on like that. If you had been genuine and sincere in your friendship it wouldn’t have happened like that. And no one can say they were unaware of how much I was suffering through the last few years. I told you all how difficult life had been. I tell everyone. I asked for any help you might have in ending the terror. I ask everyone.

I know I have not yet met the person who will be the ‘hero’ to end this. If I had, it would have ended. I can’t imagine a person could stand by and watch another destroyed and do nothing to help. Until that hero comes along, I do my best to remain true to myself… to be the same person I have always been… I’m still able to trust people… even the untrustworthy. Sometimes I just try to trust them to see if I still have it in me. I do. They haven’t destroyed me yet.

I am a strong individual. I won’t become any of the things you are trying to create. I know who I am. And I know who I am not. And you can’t change that.